Missing him

I miss him everyday. I leave work and go to my sad little house and look around at all the memories left of him. Sometimes I cry, sometimes I toughen it up. But the pain in my heart never ceases. Knowing that when I go to bed he won't be there to hold me. Ad when it's tme to wake up he still won't be there. It sucks. But I guess that's life. We had to go our separate ways for a while. I'm really praying it's a very short while. Cos I don't know how much more of this loneliness I can stand. I miss you Big Daddy.
XoXoXo. Me

Gone

Hey Blog,
So he left. Early Sunday morning . and this past week has been horrible without him, and just to think it might be a year or more before I see him.... my heart's breaking. But I'ma be strong and wait for him...forever.
xoxoxoxo

Lonely

Hye Blog,
Been quite a while but things have been super.. as is my life .:)
Anyway so J will or should be leaving on Sunday morning and at the moment I can't really say how my life is gonna be come sunday, but one thing i know for sure is I'm gonna be one lonely girl. But I do believe that all will be well. It will take some time but I'll be good. Besides it's not like we're breaking up or anything,and yeah maybe that's what will make it harder. All in all it's an exciting new phase of our lives and I am looking forward to it...
Later Blog

26 Year Old

So I turned 26 yesterday. I've got to say it was a wonderful birthday. Yes I was as broke as hell but it still turned out awesome. Got home Friday morning to a nice suprise from boo with rose petals all over by bed and bedroom floor. He's the sweetest.
So his plans are going well so far and to think that in a few days time he's gonna be gone for a while is heartbreaking. I'm praying that i will be able to cope with this..
Will be back

Saturday

Hey Blog,
so it's like my first time to work on a Saturday since like God knows when! So far things are going well. a bit disappointed with Friday's work but cest la vie.....
So finaly got my new Boks shirt and i can't hekping feeling hot in it. def cant wait for 7s!
Weekend has been good, planning to skive work 2 hrs earlier to hoook up with my girl and her 'new dude'. hopefully that will be fun. well Blog. gotta go. more later.....
Me.

Saturday

Hey Blog,
so it's like my first time to work on a Saturday since like God knows when! So far things are going well. a bit disappointed with Friday's work but cest la vie.....
So finaly got my new Boks shirt and i can't hekping feeling hot in it. def cant wait for 7s!
Weekend has been good, planning to skive work 2 hrs earlier to hoook up with my girl and her 'new dude'. hopefully that will be fun. well Blog. gotta go. more later.....
Me.

Not much

Been a while bog. yeah i've been good just jobo as usual. got a little promotion and now praying for big thngs. hope things get to work out. but then again if things DO work out my way i shouldn't be here by the end of this month. but that's all in God's plans.. right? Nway i love my blog, it's like my little Haven which nobody knows about... well at least bnone of my family members or any of my pals. This is where i can dump all my worries and fears and excitements and joy. J is doing great and hopefully if what he's planning goes through things should be fantastic and I can't fucking wait! Big bro is finally back in town and it's been a minute. I should be having my Springboks shirt and ready for trhe next rugby games. Yaay!
well blog, mob responsibilities right now so i guess i'll stop here. maybe next time i'll tell you more about my baby.
Me.

Wedsneday

So it's been a pretty tricky day. She's still acting a bit weird and i's not funny. I think i've proved my friendship enough for her to react this way. Considering all we were trying to do was look out for her arse. Work is pretty exciting at the moment. I can say it has definitly been a good month so far and last month was pretty awesome too. If I keep this up i see good things coming my way. Boyfie is super as usual and I'm just so into this relationship. You know those things you just know are real? And no matter what happens at that time and place it was real? Yeah that's what I feel about J n I. Beautiful. Got to see pics of my girl and she looks awesome and so happy. And at a time like this with the situation in our country I can't help but wish I wasn't around home. But I'll get there sometime soon. :)

First Blog

I'm so excited about this. this is my first blog and won't say so much coz I'm just mins away from leaving for home. It has been a very long night as usual and the night shifts just aren't getting any easier.Hopefully I'll be getting a new shift come next month. well. will catch you up laters.