I'm Back!!!

Yeah, I'm BAAACCCK!
An no, not just on the blog (though I had totally missed you bloggie). Just had a number of things to sort out in my life.
So, what's new... so much has happened, not sure where to start. 2010 has sucked so far, so many tears, a bit of laughter, love lost, love acquired, in short life has carried on as normal as always.

loneliness

I've probably written this before. At least the title.. Story of my life. Long distance relationships do suck. It sucks more when you wake up on a chilly Sunday morning and you realize that it's Valentine's day. I'm not sure I understand all the hype around this day. All i know is that I grew up knowing it's a special day, a day you are meant to spend with the person(s) you love and show them how much you appreciate them. So this Valentine's day, I was lucky enough to wake up in my home town, in my old room. I would have loved to have my mom around today. Cos that's one person I never appreciated enough. There's so much I could do differently if I was given a second chance. I know I was far from the perfect daughter, caused her unbearable pain during our little time together. I like to believe she hears my thoughts somehow. Cos only she can know all I have to say.
To some extent, I think my love for my dad has a lot to do with the loss of mom.. If that makes any sense. But with or without mom, I am glad I got to learn how amazing a man that guy is. And whoever said girls marry their fathers must have met him. Cos I know I won't be settling for anything less.
I know I'm writing all over the place, I've never been good with organized thoughts. But guess in short, all I am trying to do is appreciate the people who mean the world to me. My family (which is falling apart-a story for another day), my best friend (who with every passing day we drift further), my man (who has the ability to make me stop thinking), my girls (who I get to see like 3times a year) and my imaginary pet. As I said, loneliness )-: